A new life

A lot has happened since my last post. But then again, it's been a very long time since I last posted. Shortly after my last post, I found out I was pregnant again. It was quite a shock. It took a while to accept that another baby will be on its way, but after a while, I was actually excited about it and glad that it happened the way it did - by surprise and not by choice. I thought about documenting my feelings about being pregnant again along the way, but I just never felt compelled enough to take the time to do it. Ever since securing a babysitter, I stopped feeling hopeless.

The babysitter began last October and came twice a week for 4 hours each. Boy were those 4 hours glorious. Then, in the Spring we moved. The babysitter came with us and actually lived with us for the summer. That was beyond amazing. Then, baby #2 came along and I fell in love. I guess this is the love that normal moms feel when they have a baby. I just never felt it with baby #1. I can't explain this mushy lovey dovey yummy feeling I have with baby #2. I think I'm just more able to love a baby since I'm already broken in with motherhood and all, but even to this day, all that emotional baggage with #1 just prevents me from having a real deep emotional bond with her. #1 is a total daddy's girl and daddy can have her because baby #2 is going to be a mommy's girl.

After the move, we had a bit of a bad spell with #1. First she slipped in the tub and cut her chin which required a trip to the ER for 5 stitches. Then two weeks later, she fell at the mall and broke her collar bone. Luckily, it was a minor fracture which healed up in about a month.

The babysitter's last day is Thursday and I'm only minorly freaking out. A new babysitter is starting on Tuesday and although she's only working 25 hours a week, it won't be so bad because baby #1 will be in school 3 afternoons a week.

Anyway, I was surprised to see how many people still check in on this blog. I'll try to keep it up, but I just started a new blog dedicated to shopping.