A little perspective.

So, I was at my mommy and me class yesterday and the other mothers were commenting on Brooke's outfit. I bought it a few weeks ago from Mulberry Road. It's by the Tea Collection and in my opinion, a non-expensive brand for the look. This was the top she was wearing with navy leggings:

Anyway, I said, oh, thanks... they asked if it was expensive, and said, no, not at all...I think the top was around $26. They gasped as if I had said $126 and remarked that that was quite pricey. They apparently shop at Babies R Us and only buy the $5-$10 clothing. Good thing she wasn't wearing one of her $70 tops. (which she has several). Their reaction kind of made me think about all the money I've spent on baby's wardrobe. I really enjoy dressing her up and her dad seems to appreciate how cute she looks in her designer clothes. So, I doubt I'll change my ways, but it did make me think.

So, husband went to the doctor yesterday for the 3rd time to figure out his illness. This time I think they nailed it. He has a tick borne disease. This doctor had a special interest in infectious diseases and he recognized all the symptoms right away. The treatment involves taking antibiotics for the next three weeks. Thank goodness.

Life is kind of funny because just when you think you can't take something anymore, something happens that kind of relieves all that. I was about ready to send baby to an orphanage when her two weeks of yelling turned into babbling. The babbling sounds were so cute that they just melted my heart. I'm sure after the two weeks of incessant babbling, I'll feel differently, but for now I think it's the cutest thing ever. Maybe by the time I get sick of hearing her noise, she might surprise me and say mama.

Guh.

I'm just going to come right out and say it. Being a mom sucks. I just don't know why people have kids. It's 1) not fun and 2) each minute seems like an eternity. What I really need to do is surrender to the mindset that my life is over. Truly. Well, until baby goes off to boarding school, which she will. I used to have a couple hours in the evening to pursue some interests, but for some reason, it's been taking 2+ hours to get baby to bed so, by the time she goes to sleep, I need to go to bed to maintain my sanity.

Anyway, I'm super cranky and I hope this mood ends. It's a quite miserable feeling and I don't know what to do to make me feel better. Retail therapy hasn't made a dent. I think I may need to hire a part time nanny or something.

On the other end, my mom has been getting on my nerves lately too. I'm noticing that she's aging mentally. She's very sensitive in ways she's never been before. It's hard to explain. I got her a macbook so she could ichat. She's not exactly computer literate, but she's at least knows how to use a mouse. For some reason, she keeps coming up with excuses why she can't get around to trying out the computer. At least she finally turned it on today and when it asked for her network password, she had no idea what it was and I told her to try a couple obvious ones like "password" or her telephone #. All of a sudden, she was like, I just don't have the time to do this now...I have so much work I need to catch up on... Let's do this another time. I was a bit annoyed because we spent two minutes, maybe three at this point trying to get her connected and then she just shut down. Uh...ok.

Hopefully I will be able to relax a bit and cut her and baby some slack. I need like a day off... a day to sleep or do a craft. Kind of be myself for a moment. Hopefully that day will come soon.

Struggling.

I've been really having a hard time coming up with entries as of late. When life consists of sitting in one room all day, there's not much to talk about. It also doesn't help that I've been kind of feeling down in the dumps the past couple of weeks. Baby and I start a new class tomorrow, so hopefully the pickings are better for finding a friend. It will also help that there'll be a reason to leave the house an extra day a week. The class I'm already taking meets Fridays and this new one meets Wednesdays. Hopefully this will help with my shopping problem. That's how I get into trouble... bored...need to get out... how 'bout going to the mall.... oooh, must.buy.that. Although, online shopping is part of my problem. Anyway, maybe if I feel busier, then my need to shop will be less pressing.

Finally I have a reason to actually go on a diet. The wedding is tentatively set for mid January and the thought of squeezing into an unforgiving bridesmaid's dress is enough motivation. As for the wedding, it's a delicate situation. No one is really happy about it and everyone has questions. It'll definitely be interesting to hear the little rehearsal dinner speeches because there are no cute little stories about the couple to speak of. Nor can anyone honestly say that they're a perfect pair because no one knows anything about the guy or anything about them as a couple. Their relationship is based on daily phone calls and that's about it.

Purchases this week.

As usual, I bought a lot of stuff this week... Some of the highlights include:

For Brooke:

A Rody bouncy horse

From Mulberry Road: Dress/Leggings by Pink Chicken A Hat by Tuff Cookie : For Me: From JCrew From Sephora: A T3 flat iron for my hair

Blah.

The husband has been sick for over a week now which means that I've been full time with the baby. I think I'm reaching my limit with being a mother. I'm just kind of sick of taking care of her and can't get a moment to myself. Meanwhile, I get to hear an update on my husband's condition every 10 minutes or so. His illness is a bit concerning because he's had a fever for over a week and went to the doctor twice. They don't know what he has and think he just has some kind of virus, but nightly fever and chills followed by a terrible headache is starting to wear on him.

I managed to get some proper thread for the bead crochet project. Also, I realized that I mis-counted the amount of beads necessary for the project. I already spent $67 on beads alone and basically had to buy $67 more because I actually needed twice as many beads. I started off really rocky - bead crochet looks super easy on the video, but it took me about 10 trys to get it going. I've got half the necklace done and am just waiting for the other half of the beads to come in. The local bead store has the beads, but cost twice as much as the online retailer.

Anyway, big news on the sister in law front. She just got engaged yesterday. I guess I'm happy for her, but it's kind of a shock because she met him on the internet 5 months ago and only met him in person 2 times prior to this weekend. Given her age, you have to assume that she knows what she's doing, but for someone who hasn't dated before and has been dying to get married, you also have to worry. I think if I met him, then I would know whether or not to be excited about this match. I just don't know. I find it a little fishy that after being whisked to the summer place on a private plane he decides to pop the question. I'm also disappointed that he didn't know to ask the father before asking her. Luckily, my husband knew better. Anyway, we'll just have to wait and see.

Stagnant waters.

I'm a bit disappointed that I missed two days of entries. Nothing worthy of writing about has gone on in the last 48 hours, so I guess I can't be blamed. The beads that I ordered came in, however, I got the wrong thickness of string so, I need to hop out to the local bead store to get the right kind. That's one of the downfalls of shopping online. You can't exactly see what it is your getting, so you kind of have to rely on the description. Most of the time that works, but sometimes, you end up with string that was supposed to be "thick, perfect for beading" but instead, it's as thin as sewing thread.

This weekend we are supposed to back to the summer house, but the husband is feeling a bit under the weather. We are thinking of canceling the trip, but the main reason for going is so that we can meet his sister's new boyfriend. This sister has never had a boyfriend, so it's a pretty big deal. (She's 39). Anyway, I was going to hold out and wait until after the weekend to write my next entry, since there would be something to talk about, but I guess I'll have to come up with something sooner.

I'm so proud of myself for this idea...I racked up a ton of points on my credit card from my old business and was itching to use them before they expire. I ended up getting a free MacBook which I'm going to set up for my parents so they can ichat and see the baby whenever they wanted. My mom can hardly wait... She's actually coming to visit in a couple weeks, so this will tide her over until she gets here.

Anyway, today's entry pretty much lives up to the title of this blog... It was bound to happen.

Lucky 7.

Today is my 7th year wedding anniversary. As each year goes on, it seem like less and less of a big deal. We just take it for granted that we are together and assume we'll be together for the rest of our lives. We've actually been together 11 years and knew each other for 15 years. Where does the time go?

I can say that I'm certain that I married the right person. Although he's not perfect - I'm definitely not - he's as good as I can imagine and sometimes I need to remind myself how lucky I am that he's willing to put up with me. Right before we got married, my mom asked him point blank: "Are you absolutely sure you can handle this brat? Believe me, it's not easy." Gee thanks, mom.

Now that we have the kid, things are kind of different. I feel like we're not us anymore. The days of drop everything and hit the movies or let's eat a quick dinner at the bar or let's lie in bed and watch tv until 3pm on a Saturday are over and now it's all about what's the baby doing, how's the baby feeling, what does the baby need right now. I'm still adjusting to the new way of life, but boy do I miss our old way. I feel like most normal people don't think this way - they feel like having this focal point is what's been missing in their life.

Anyway, we usually go out to a fancy restaurant for our anniversary. I think this year, we'll be ordering pizza. At least pizza is one of my favorite foods.